Fuck with me. God damn
I love the new Deftones album.
Okay, so I can either keep using my crappy old USB tablet and install Photoshop 7 on my laptop or I have to bite the bullet and get myself a new tablet so I can utilize the Photoshop CS3 I already have installed. Obviously, I'd prefer the latter, but I'm kind of broke and it's going to take to some time. Gauge (my car, that's her name), needs some new engine mounts so she stops being so cranky at stoplights, and we'd like a new head unit as well. Problem is, I might also be making a little less money in the near future. Which is complete bullshit, given the circumstances. It's kind of a long story that I don't feel like getting into right now, but let's just say I hate my job with the fire of a million suns going nova at once. I really should just look for another one, but then again it's probably best I wait until I move Delaware before I do that. Which I ALSO won't be able to afford to do anytime soon as long as I stick with the job I have now. I hate being stuck like this. I need to win the lottery or something.
But it's all good for motivation, one would think. If I can get my webcomic cleaned up and epically awesome (perhaps Digg-worthy), I might be able to generate enough hits where I can actually start raking in some money through ads and t-shirt sales like the big boys (i.e. questionablecontent.net
, to name a couple). What I would give to actually have a self-sufficient webcomic
and not have to strangle my self-esteem for 40 hours every week. I would actually be happy with my life.
Not to say that my life totally sucks or anything. I love my bigger bedroom I just moved over to since my friend Nadine got her own place and moved out. And I love my girlfriend Megan even more. She's another huge source of motivation for me since I want to be able to catch up to how awesome she is. I mean, there's obviously nothing wrong
with the fact that she makes more than twice
what I do, but it doesn't make feel like any less of a loser, especially considering I'm three years older.
But anyway (STOP WHINING, STU
), back to the website. Once I get the whole tablet thing ironed out, I'll post a fuck-all ending to the shitty Stu On This comic I wasted the last nine years doing, or possibly even just draw it on paper and then scan and post that if I can't wait. I want to start something totally new, a comic based on my life and friends and/or something even more bizarre than the original comic series. I haven't been utilizing my talents at all for well over the past year now, and it's seriously depressing me. Of course, the reason I haven't been motivated to draw anything probably stemmed from being depressed, so it's a pretty vicious cycle. I need to channel some fucking willpower and just snap the fuck out of it and get down to business. I've been looking into some CSS stuff to redesign the site with, although I may just keep with what I know for now and stick to good old HTML with some Java bits since that would make things really easy on me, archaic as it is. We shall see. Maybe if I get it popular, someone will offer to help me remodel, who knows.
Ah, it feels good to blog again. I'm completely drained from work, and the fact that I woke up at 4:30 this morning and couldn't get back to sleep certainly isn't helping. Time for some Super Street Fighter 4! :D